Senior Year

So this September, I will be starting my senior year of high school, as well as turning 18. I will be a legal adult, and on the brink of moving out into the "real world" on my own.
Exciting? Yes.
Scary? Undeniably so.
Ever since I started my freshman year, I couldn't wait to graduate and be done with high school! Now as I stand facing the beginning of my last year, I cannot help but wish I had just a couple more years before I had to make all the big decisions I will be forced to make this year. More time to develop who I am, to get involved in all the activities that having a job in the "real world" will make no allowance for. I feel myself scrambling to hold on to every last precious moment of what is left of high school  - before the school year has even started yet!
I feel blessed, however, that I have had this realization so early on in my last year. It has influenced me to make some decisions about this year that will serve me well. I have decided to squeeze in every last thing I can into my senior year before it is over. I am going to really live this year, not taking any moment for granted.
I'm going to start guitar and voice lessons soon, and I am going to volunteer at a nursing home once school starts. I also want to join 4H. (my aunt wants to get goats whether or not I do 4H so it's a perfect opportunity) Aside from this, I am going to throw myself into school this year. I want to get the best grades I possibly can, to finish high school strong. Of course, the most important thing to me will continue to be my relationship with God, regardless of whatever else I end up doing.
Senior year is shaping up to be my busiest, most exciting, and scariest year ever.

Holding Me

Every time I start to trust in anything but You, 
I trip and I fall until I come back to the Truth, 
But every time I fall You're right there holding me, 
Telling me that You believe, in everything that I could be, 


But how many times have I broken Your heart? 
And I break it once again, 
And how many times have you opened your arms,
And let me right back in?
But You're, holdin' me,
Even when I start to stray,
You still keep, holdin' me,
Even when I walked away,
Your love's never failing,
Though Your heart it was breaking,
You were holding me, through the pain.


All the lonely nights and the empty days,
This is the life that I live, that I'm wasting away.
What am I doing in the time I have here?
Living my life by my greed and my fear, 

And how many times have I broken Your heart? 

And I break it once again, 

And how many times have you opened your arms,

And let me right back in?

But You're, holdin' me,

Even when I start to stray,

You still keep, holdin' me,

Even when I walked away,

Your love's never failing,

Though Your heart it was breaking,

You were holding me, through the pain

I'm not always true,

But I'm still in love with you,

So you forgive me again,

And wipe away my sin,

I want so hard to live a life that's Holy,

I just want you to be my one and only...

But how many times have I broken Your heart? 

And I break it once again, 

And how many times have you opened your arms,

And let me right back in?

But You're, holdin' me,

Even when I start to stray,

You still keep, holdin' me,

Even when I walked away,

Your love's never failing,

Though Your heart it was breaking,

You were holding me, through the pain.

Moving On

Never thought I could move on, from you baby, 
But guess what? I even surprised myself, 
And now I've stopped looking back on behind me, 
Letting the past gather dust on the shelf, 
'Cause the past is in the past, 
I'm looking forward moving on, 
And I never knew 'till I had to, 
That I could ever be this strong,
Moving on was easier,
Than I thought that it would be,
I just had to let you go,
So that God could set me free. ♥