I feel suffocated... by technology, by emotions, by drama, by everything in this life that is complicated right now. I'm getting so dizzy and disoriented from it all, I don't even know which way is up anymore...
I long for simplicity, to retreat to a place where 2 + 2 = 4 and I can actually understand what is happening around me... I long for a place that, even as social as I am, there can be just me, God, and His creation around me... That I could hear His voice clearly...
I long to be loved simply. To be loved for who I am, with no complications, stress, reservations, conditions, or preconceptions. I just want to have someone to love and be loved in return, fully and completely. Someone I can give my heart to, without the fear of having it ripped into a million tiny pieces....
I long for peace.. His peace... A peace that does not waver through stressful situations or emotional complications. A peace that will get me through even the roughest storm... A peace that permeates my very soul, heart, and mind.
I long to get rid of all the stupid stress and confusion in my life right now. I want life to be simpler. I want the drama to stop....
Is all that such a bad thing?
But you know what else? Above all these things, the most important thing I long for, is for God's Will to be done in my life. I don't care if I have any other things in my life, if my life glorifies God. So let the horrible confusion of life, being a teenager, and my senior year of high school ensue.. But let HIS name be praised through it all.
