What's Best for You

Maybe one day you will look back and realize that every time you changed your mind again, it broke my heart, but I was still willing to try.
Maybe one day you'll look back and realize I meant what I said when I said "I love you", and I never stopped meaning it.
Maybe one day you will realize that you'll never find anyone just like me again.
Maybe one day you'll regret ever letting me go...
But I hope you don't.
I hope you find true love again.
I hope you find someone that understands you better than I ever did.
I hope you find love and peace and joy and happiness.
I hope you grow in your relationship with God past what you have ever dreamed.
I hope you forget about me so memories of what we had will never cause you pain.
I hope you forget about me so that your life will be less complicated and you won't be so stressed.
I hope you find someone else to replace me. Someone better. Someone good enough.

I hope that if I ever cross your mind again it will be only as brief nostalgic memories that no longer seem quite real.

As for me, I will never be able to erase every vivid detail from my mind. 

I won't ever be able to forget the way you made me smile, or the way that when I talked to you all my problems seemed to get smaller and disappear.

The way that with a single glance you could turn my knees to jelly and my heart to butterflies.

The way you could cheer me up so easily....

The way you would make puns to make me laugh, even if they made no sense or were really cheesy.

The way it felt to fall asleep in your arms... So safe and protected..

Still....

I still care.
I still love you.
I still wish you were mine.
I wish you were willing to fight for me.
I wish I was worth it to you.
A million little things still remind me about you, and the memories are bittersweet.
You made me a better person.
You helped me become who I am today.
I can't imagine finding anything as deep as what we had in another relationship.
I will never be able to forget you, though as I promised you I will try to move on.
But I hope you forget about me.
I hope I no longer will cause you pain.
I hope you lead a blessed life, living it to the full potential God has for you.

This was what gave me the strength to break my own heart, and say goodbye.
Because it's what's best for you.
Goodbye.