To Let Go, and Let God

Well.... I did it.
I knew what God wanted me to do, and I followed through.
And I hate it.
It really sucks. I hurt someone else, and it's hurting me. I know I did the right thing, but isn't doing the right thing supposed to make you feel good? All I feel like is a pile of horse manure.
At least the most difficult part is over - taking the first step.
Even though I know I'm going to have to work through this pain, it's easier than torturing myself by putting things off, and dreading the pain.
I just let go of my selfish wants and let God have his way in my life.
It is what I have always striven to do, but often chickened out whenever he wanted me to do something hard. Not this time, though. This time was too important. And this time, despite the pain I followed through, taking my Saviour's hand and letting him lead me where He wanted me to go.
It hurts. It hurts a lot, and I hate it, but I know I did the right thing.
The thing that hurts the most though, is knowing how much I hurt someone else. I always want to help others, not hurt them! It kills me to know that I am the source of someone else's pain. I hate it! It goes against who I am to hurt other people. (Well, emotionally anyway, for those of you who know me well... ;) lol)
I'm just praying that God will help me to endure this, and help the other person who was hurt as well. Especially the other person....
I'll make it through this, I will. I just need to continue to let go of my selfish wants, and let God guide me.